Birthday party was cute and fun, parent trip went above average well (!), and who tf knows if we’ll go to our Halloween ~block party~ tonight.
Rob left to the Performance Center aka The PC aka where NXT has shows every Tuesday. I rly can’t imagine Rob rushes back before 5:30pm for this.
how much is “a bit of wine and pork sliders?”
were these graphics the same last year? the year before?
how did they land on 7 pumpkins?
did they print these on a home printer? in (a little) color!!
the only portable chair we have is one Wrestlemania 2023 John Cena vs. Roman Reigns chair. I can’t find our exact one online, but the one I did find on ebay was going for $410. It wouldn’t be right to flex on new neighbors that hard. Also we only have one, so that’s not ideal.
*An edit and probably why I couldn’t find the chair online. My husband just alerted me that the chair was from Summerslam 2022. I would like to make a formal apology for the mistake.
I hope a dish to share = 2 different Publix cold cut sandwich type plates
I still disagree with Rob that White Claw doesn’t count as a “dish.” Read the room! If I was somewhere with only a bit of wine and pork sliders, the variety pack White Claw would most certainly perform as a dish.
are we going to be in costume? Should I only do a witch hat or do I ball out in full Jessica Rabbit?
is it kosher to drive half a block to the block party if you’re in character (heels)?
what are we going to talk about????
how many years in a row does it take an event to graduate to “let the tradition continue?”
I just bought Reese’s miniature cups, blow pops, mini rice crispy treats, and a 155 piece twix snickers midnight combo bag. These are good treats. According to a neighbor who is a longstanding (perhaps both years!) Halloween Block Party Member, she said, “oh it’s great. We sit at the end of the street, have (a bit of) wine and all the kids just come and take candy. I can’t let children, that I am quite literally trying to impress, take these delicacies and not know the most glamorous woman on the block chose those for them? I’ll make sure to physically hold the mixed luxury candy Saw X bucket of candy.
TRIGGER WARNINGS: EDs, drugs, meds, calling on the phone to talk to a representative.
In other news, I ran out of Prozac on Sunday. My birthday! When my bottle got low I scoured my psychiatrist’s annoying ass portal trying to find my prescription to renew. Or a way to call a human etc. I was poking around when I saw something called “Problem List,” and oh boy, did that catch my attention.
So, let’s get into it. All of these…descriptions are listed as “current.”
I think cannabis ABUSE is dramatic. I don’t fully disagree but like, it could have easily said, “CANNABIS IN A COOL WAY- LIKE NOT USUALLY EVEN IN THE DAY (I am high in the day right now but hear me out. I’m writing, I’m thriving, and I’m detoxing from Prozac). And what kind of abuse situation can be described as UNCOMPLICATED? Like, if someone says they’re in a complicated relationship, that universally means bad. Fine I just researched uncomplicated substance abuse and that just means “not involving medical complications.” I actually am still unclear.
ADHD COMBINED TYPE. Sure yeah. Problem, or just why I’m creative and messy?
Now it gets sticky.
EATING DISORDER UNSPECIFIED. I’m listening, but before I take that and run, I must offer this memory. When I went to magical wellness writing retreat Kripalu, my angel Caitie and I were invited to do a cold plunk in the magical lake. Our class bestie Jenney said, “before we go, it’s really dangerous to go in very cold water if you’re suffering from an eating disorder.” Caitie and I looked at each other. Caitie said, “who doesn’t?” while I said, “what counts as an ‘eating disorder?’” This just proves my point. Don’t we all, for the most part, have some sort of generational/cultural/emotional disordered eating? Even in the “you’re going to be so skinny!” Ilana said to me as I was violently throwing up food poisoning on the side of the street in CDMX. All of it. Like, duh the goal is intuitive balanced eating, but we’ve already all understood we constantly eat microplastics. That’s a disorder no? If you’ve had a Lean Cuisine that’s at least three disorders.
When I was in health/driver’s ed class, Emily, Karen, and I made a cinematic masterpiece about the classic three eating disorders. Emily played a bulimic high achieving student, Karen slayed the role of (honestly hack) anorexic model, and I was an overeater who gained a significant amount of weight a la pillow in sweatshirt. So when I see EATING DISORDER UNSPECIFIED, I’m going to need more info. Especially, to my own credit, I truly believe I am in the least disordered eating phase of my life since I was like 16??
GENERAL ANXIETY DISORDER. That’s normal me, I get it. This is any first daughter perfectionist Jewish and/or Muslim type.
MAJ DEPRESS D/O SINGLE EPIS UNS. This is shorter for Major Depressive Disorder Single Episode. So I guess that’s “current” even though I’ve been doing pretty ok! Right??
Is it okay to say, “retardation nearly every day?!!” Do these descriptors ever not say current? Like, on other people’s problem list are there two dates? Like “Claude Marques OEDIPUS COMPLEX UNCOMPLICATED 2/14/99- 9/5/17” Why was I able to see my Problem List??
After being absolutely read to filth, I called multiple numbers to get through to a human. He said they would send my prescription renewal in. I got a confirmation email from my mail pharmacy. I have yet to receive the fresh bottle.
Problem list aside, I had been feeling ready to get off Prozac. Again. My eyes have been so dead and I even learned that anti-depressant face looks older (bc I had been looking so sad and old?) because your face muscles relax way more. I can’t afford to LOOK OLDER? I love looking devoid of emotion until I see a photo and realize omg I’m in a new place and meeting new people and I’m coming off at least half-zomb. Also life in Florida is way more chill. Driving isn’t the hunger games. Parking is not an episode of Survivor. I live on a lake! I was forced to stop the Prozac because of that annoying rx shit, but now I’m taking it as a reason to stop. I’m on the lowest dose of Prozac so there isn’t a smaller milligram to step to. Last time I stopped I got waaaaay more maj depress- but that’s because I wasn’t on Wellbutrin at the time! Which I only started taking because of the Prozac. That I just stopped.
So day 3 on only Wellbutrin has gone great.
We’ll see,
XOXO,
Ariana
This is a big recap! Can only say at this moment, “Happy Halloween,” and we had the best time!
Maj depresh babes unite